Reflection

MY EX-BOYFRIEND REPLIED TO MY BLOG, HEARTBREAK ANNIVERSARY!!!😭❤️

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I was just in the house, minding my own business, scrolling through my phone and this email notification pops on my screen...long story short. Danelle replied to my blog post.

Dear Suki, I never stop to think about how accidental we were. How two perfect humans almost fitted in each other so well. But still there was a part of us that was not for each other. Mostly you were half in it or in some peripheral oblivion. I was more of the nest you'd fly to when you were tired while I would have preferred you'd stick in the nest for forever. We had overhead conversations while all I wanted was us to be as deep as we could be, you could not offer the bare minimum, what was there to lose? You were a closed book, and you wrote your life in your mind and you expected me to read that too. I was the books you placed in the shelf to collect dust and never to be read, the dusty clock on the wall that for a moment wanted to tick but was always stuck at 4:04pm. You described me as the love of your life but in all honesty I was the love of your drunk Friday nights, the love of your sad nights and boring Sunday afternoons. Do you ever realize that no matter how we tossed out dice we had to be apart? I would have swore I caught a glimpse of your heartbeat only to look again and realize it did not beat for me alone, after all. We stitched our love so perfectly together once, then you tore it apart in multiple fights, for what Suki? You are among my inventory of lost things that I no longer seek to find. My girl Ella, I like her name, her hair, her big silly eyes, her huge glasses that hang on her face carelessly, her terrible taste in music and how she falls asleep at 9am all the time. She is almost everything you are insecure about. She is not scared of falling in love, of crying out loud, of staining glass with lipstick, of dancing in a crowd or even laughing hard, God her laugh is ugly! You had your fair share of perfections and imperfections and I loved the whole package but you were not the problem, I was since you could not love me as much as I did, what we were, what we would have been, what we would have brought to the world, meant more to me then, than anything ever did. I realised the end of us, way before. You realised the end of us, long after.

Your twin flame, your other piece wanders the world, you are going to collide when your stars align, and you will experience perfection without even trying. I hope you realize you will be enough for them and you will be everything you couldn't be with me and even more. I didn't mean to break your heart, I meant to save us from being irredeemable and toxic pieces of shit. You are really great and I hope happiness finds you. I hope your soul figures a way to unfriend mine. I hope you love the hell out of yourself.

Yours Danelle.

Don't send tissues, it's a fictional illustration.❤️

Thank you for the love ...❤️🦋

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  • Sakish7:54 AM · Jun 5, 2021
    You could really use some tissues��
  • Russ10:39 AM · Jun 5, 2021
    Great piece😊
  • Runo10:57 AM · Jun 5, 2021
    So proud
  • Anonymous11:02 AM · Jun 5, 2021
    Tissues which way?😭
    Suki1:36 PM · Jun 5, 2021
    Nyuma ya tent 😂
  • Anonymous12:06 PM · Jun 5, 2021
    Babe that was something amazing,, and hurting 👌🥺🥺
  • Evan Thinks that12:06 PM · Jun 5, 2021
    The only thing I hate about this, is that it ends! ❤️❤️❤️
  • Anonymous2:55 PM · Jun 5, 2021
    Your writing is so amazing, so inspirational, if I was a writer I would want to be you I love this piece ❤️
  • Ked.rine5:09 PM · Jun 5, 2021
    Favourite blogger🥺🥺🥺❤❤
  • Shiey5:34 PM · Jun 5, 2021
    I was about to pass you one till you told us not to send tissues 😂 Fine piece baby girl ❤
  • Domeey6:06 PM · Jun 5, 2021
    All your flaws highlighted then...you were never the problem...Mimi hizi vitu sitawai elewa😂. But as always...wow🥳
  • mwamburi6:17 PM · Jun 5, 2021
    And well Suki, if words are a veil...then you hold the most elegant of silks. Just wow!
  • Tevin6:20 PM · Jun 5, 2021
    My favorite writer 🔥🔥this is a great piece and am always thrilled to read your content Abby💯
  • O-zed Nation6:59 PM · Jun 5, 2021
    I am definitely not crying 🤧
  • Hakeem8:33 PM · Jun 5, 2021
    Don't we all love a creative an imaginative writer ? Such a great piece ��
  • Makai anthem9:09 PM · Jun 5, 2021
    Read this word in a french accent Fantastic!!!

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